As this stadium full of people joined together in song, something deep in my spirit was stirred up. There was in that moment a tangible sense of God’s presence, and a undenyable knowledge that His heart is moved when people come togther in unity like that. It’s hard to put clearly to words, but the closest I can come is to say that as this stadium full of people joined there voices in song they somehow came togehter in the honest reality of their humanity. Walls of diversity came down and our shared most inate reality as people created and longing for the creator rose up.

This week, I was moved again in much the same way as I watched the Kony 2012 Video. If you haven’t seen it yet take 30min and watch it!

KONY 2012 from INVISIBLE CHILDREN on Vimeo.

Again, in much the same way as the coming together of people at the Coldplay concert eclipsed the show itself, the coming together of a generation around these incredibly significant issues eclipsed the specific movement itself for me. Through out the video I was moved to tears seeing thousands come together to stand for justice, righteousness, and to declare their care and love for others. One of the most powerful moments in the video for me was when in unison a large group of youth begin to make declarations together out loud.

“We’ve seen these kids. We’ve heard their cries. This war must end. We will not stop. We will not fear. We will fight war!”.

Not sure what it all means exactly, but I know that God is moving and some how He is present in these moments of ‘coming together’. His heart is to see his beloved come together in love and truth. To see people fight for justice, and to show mercy! I’m left longing to see this coming together increase as it encounters the love and life of Jesus. From this revelation of the Father’s heart, and into the thousands of lives that so obviously long for what only He can bring, I lift up the cry of my heart today: “Father, Let You Kingdom Come”.

At first, it really started to freak me out and even caused moments of real anxiety. In response I would ask God what was going on, and time and again He pointed me to His faithfulness. “Why have I brought you here?” He asked, and it didn’t take but a moment to remember His words of promise concerning this ‘Heart Season’. My eyes were opened early on to see that time without a job (as long as it might last) was also time freed up in an intense way for His working in me. The waiting has also exposed in me a lack of trust that in turn has been met with real growth. Learning to trust that His plans are perfect, and His timing is purposed, has been central to this time of waiting.

This week, in His providence, God led me to an incredible job. I interviewed and have been hired for a four month contract with the YWCA – LIFE Program here in Lethbridge. The program runs out of a 6 bed duplex here in the city that housed youth between 15 and 22. Working closely with Children’s Services the house works to come along side some incredible youth whose journey’s have been anything but ideal. I’m so excited to have the opportunity to breathe life into these youth, and to show God’s love in some deeply practical ways to both clients and fellow employees.

It has been incredible to see how perfectly God has worked in all this. The past two months have been filled with some of the deepest heart stuff of my life, and I wouldn’t have changed the timing of it all for anything. This job with the YWCA is another incredible example of the perfection of his plans. During the next four months I’ll be working a consistent schedule Monday to Friday that allows for lots of interaction and focus at River of Life at the same time. The full time pay over that time will set us up well for the year that will follow apprenticing with Todd and the team at the church. (my brother’n'law Rob is presently apprenticing and will be headed back to Regina to plant a church there right around the time that I finish up with this contract.) Long story short:

The LORD says, “I will guide you along the best pathway for your life.
I will advise you and watch over you. Psalm 32.8

His path is perfect and trustworthy, and I pray deeper and deeper revelation of that in my life. That my feet would consistently know sure footing on that path. God is faithful, and his love endures forever. I’m excited and filled with faith and hope for where this path will lead.

I’ve recorded a version of the song, and pray that you encounter the love of God as you listen to it.

Download audio file (MightyRiverJasonUpton.mp3)

14 When I think of all this, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, 15 the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. 16 I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit. 17 Then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him. Your roots will grow down into God’s love and keep you strong. 18 And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love is. 19 May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Ephesians 3.14-19

One of the things God communicated was His intention to ‘draw me to His heart’ in this season. That our time in Lethbridge would be one of preparation, and specifically one of coming close to the Father’s heart (for us, for His church, for the world He created, etc.) Who wouldn’t love a promise like that! It truly did fill me with incredible hope and excitement for our move.

Since arriving, it’s been awesome to see how God is, in no small way, faithfully fulfilling His promise to me. The thing I sometimes forget, is that to come close to the heart of God means an exposing of our own. On one hand that exposing has been incredibly encouraging. To have God so clearly show you who you are in Him and just how much He loves you is life giving like nothing else is. The tough part is the realization that there are still damaged and unhealthy places in my heart. Any time spent in God’s company will inevitably expose those things, as light exposes darkness. It’s been so important to remember that this exposing is no less an extension of His love for me than His words of acceptance and encouragement. It is His love that refuses to leave me with my brokenness, and His deep commitment to my freedom that has Him address the areas of my heart that are incredibly scary for me to look at.

It’s in the face of this ‘darkness’ that I’ve come to realize we have a choice to make. It is a choice of ultimate significance. A choice that can mean light instead of darkness. Like actions carried out in darkness, our lives lived with unresolved hurt and pain… our lives filled with unforgiveness and resentment… our lives paralyzed by secrets and the weight of the unaddressed wrongs we’ve committed… all mean a life continued in the restrictions of our brokenness. God’s desire and offer to us stands in direct opposition to this restricted life. It is that we would “be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.” Ephesians 3.19 While the work of healing and restoration is one that only God can do, we do have a key choice to make in response to His offer of life. Galatians 5.16-18 says:

16 So I say, let the Holy Spirit guide your lives. Then you won’t be doing what your sinful nature craves. 17 The sinful nature wants to do evil, which is just the opposite of what the Spirit wants. And the Spirit gives us desires that are the opposite of what the sinful nature desires. These two forces are constantly fighting each other, so you are not free to carry out your good intentions. 18 But when you are directed by the Spirit, you are not under obligation to the law of Moses.

“So you are not free to carry out your good intentions” is another way of saying this fight has a direct effect on our choices. Daily, in multiple situations, relationships, and even in the confines of our own mind and heart, we are faced with a fight between Spirit and flesh (light and dark). It’s in the face of that fight that we must choose to be led either by the Holy Spirit or by our own plans, ideas, and leanings. We are undoubtedly in need of grace to make this choice well, especially when fear, anxiety, pride, and the like work hard in us to impact the decision. So, it is with a heart of prayer and longing that I turn to God for the grace and faith needed to choose His work in some of the harder places of my heart. I pray too for you as you read this. That the grace of God would allow you to embrace His the offer He makes to you right now… to draw near to Him and know life.

I wanted to share the experience I had during the last hour and half of our drive into Lethbridge. As we neared the city and the beginning of this season of preparation and training, I listened to a sermon Todd preached (10/2/11) at River of Life a couple months ago. The sermon was a part of a series He’s teaching right now on what it means to be an apostolic church. As I drove the message began to pour over me… it’s easy to get overwhelmed with personal expectation heading into a season like we’re in. I found that I was feeling the need to ‘make the most’ of our time here, and in turn started to own the journey in a way that made it feel heavy. Todd’s message, stemming from Mark 1.17, encouraged me with these simple words:

“Follow me, and I will make you become fishers of men.”

This simple invitation from Jesus rang out in my heart. Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men. As I sat listening to Todd’s words, God spoke to deep places of me bringing life and peace to this new adventure. It is an incredibly powerful and freeing thing to remember that the ‘making’ is not up to us, but is the continuing work of the creator of creation!

We are so excited to be here, and to quietly embrace the plans of God for us in this season. It will, without question, be incredible to see what God does. With great faith we let go and simply follow knowing He will be faithful to accomplish everything on His heart for this time.

While resting in this promise, I listened to a song that has become my hearts cry in the past year. It’s by an incredible group of guys known as Ascend The Hill, and is titled Spend It All.

Ascend the Hills stuff is all available for free on their site at: ascendthehill.com

About eight months ago, we clearly heard God ask us to get ready for what He had planned next. Through a process of prayer and shared journey (with friends and each other) Janna and I have made the decision to move to Lethbridge for a time of preparation. We will be working with Todd Atkinson and the community at River of Life who have been a divine gift of relationship, encouragement, and hope for us as we look to the next season of life.

On of the things God has revived and restored in our hearts is a deep love for Him and His church. This and the growing revelation of His love for us and others, has ignited a passion in our hearts. His life changing work in our lives (both as individuals and as a couple) has left us with a deep desire to share this gift of love and grace with the world around us. We are so excited about all that God has in store! At this juncture, it looks like we will spend 1-2 years in Lethbridge preparing to start a church. God’s plan for us is so perfect, and it’s been awe inspiring to see Him lovingly lead us to this decision.

Though it’s impossible to say with 100% certainty, our desire is to return to the Valley after our time in Lethbridge. We have come to really love this Valley, and would be so excited to see His Kingdom come here as it is in heaven.

A week ago I received an incredible Christmas gift from a dear friend. It was a T-Shirt containing a graphic that I believe to be of deeply prophetic significance for the journey we embark upon later this week.

The graphic contains a windmill in the one corner (Lethbridge) and a tree in the other (Comox). A closer look shows the prairie grass turning to ocean waves! This coupled with a word from God a couple weeks ago has so clearly affirmed for us our decision to move forward on this journey. We are so excited to walk the path God has set in front of us, knowing that ‘He will guide us along the best pathway for our lives’ ps 32.8 We’re so thankful to all of you who have shared our journey this past 4-5 years, and ask you to continue as we pray:

Holy Spirit Come for Christ’s Sake

Chris Gore from Bethel in Redding, CA was sharing, and Sunday night of the conference he used his time to speak out with passion the love of God for us. Part way through his sharing we were encouraged to find a quiet space, and soak in a track that beautifully declared the truth of God’s love for us. I was blown away, and have since looked into who recorded it…. that led me to Jonathan David Helser. I’ve been listening to more of His music, and it is stirring deep places in me. The fresh and powerful voice that Jonathan brings to this faith journey needs to be shared… so here it is – a gift to me this week, and now from me to you. Check it out: www.jonathanhelser.com

Specifically, check out the song ‘inheritance’ featuring Graham Cooke. This is the track that Chris played Sunday night… may the Holy Spirit minister to you as he did me.

Download audio file (Inheritance.mp3)
Inheritance (Live) featuring Graham Cooke – by Jonathan David Helser Purchase Jonathan’s Stuff Here: His Site .. iTunes .. CDBaby

You can listen, download, and share the music by going to my music page @ chadblock.ca/music. Feel free to send the link to friends and the like (always nice to spread the word.) Just for checking it out I’d like to share a free download of a Brian Doersen Cover – I Lift My Eyes Up.

*all the proceeds from music sales will be going back into music and ministry related ventures. This fall I am hoping to get over to the Vineyard Conference in Asia, and to Bangkok to be with a church in the Slum there. The cash generated by music sales will help make the opportunity a reality.

Enjoy the music!
Chad

The other day I woke up feeling pretty ‘out of it’. The main issue was a deep unrest, and personal frustration with feeling this way again. As I sat down to spend some time in scripture and prayer I was saddened by the realization that I’d ‘lost my bearings’ again. As I reflected on this I began to see that I’d slowly stopped pursuing God in prayer, study, and in generally with my attitude/heart over the couple days previous. In frustration with my self and the situation I sat back and laid a couple questions before God:

• Why do I ‘check out’ like this?
• What causes me to wander off like I do?
• Why do I get so tired, so distracted, so overwhelmed time and again?

God quieted my heart, and then clearly spoke these words to me: “It’s because you think there’s a scorecard”. I began to realize that for me the Christian life can feel like a giant test, and God a watchful eye making notes on a huge scorecard. In fact, I believed this so fully that I began to wrestle it through with God: “If there’s no scorecard, then what’s with the story of the talents in Matthew 25?” I mean, the two servants that doubled the masters investment got the coveted commendation “well done my good and faithful servant” while the one who lost his masters investment was chastised as wicked and lazy!

Then I heard God say “you’ve misunderstood the parable”. Suddenly I began to see the story with fresh vision. I began to see that these men weren’t given money to invest because the master needed them to make him more money. He had lots, and was most definitely capable of investing that money without their help. He invited them to partner with him not out of need, but out of love. The master, in asking these men to invest his money, was saying “I love you, and I know you can do this. I want you to steward this investment for me not because I need you too, but because I want to involve you in the work of my kingdom.” It was with this understanding that the men were to take and invest the money (and the first two did just that.) Somehow the love and trust of the master afforded them the courage to invest and subsequently double his money. This resulted in the joyful praise of the master.

The third man’s experience was very different. His response to the responsibility given to him was one of fear that led to an inability to see that the master believed in him. It made it impossible to see that master would never ask something of him that was beyond his ability. Rather than be inspired and released by the masters trust, he allows this incredible opportunity to become overwhelming. Fears, anxiety, self-doubt, and the belief that he would inevitably fail the master cause him to bury the money in the ground! The third man was unable to see clearly the nature of the master who believed in him. Instead he saw a giant scorecard and was inevitably overwhelmed by the false responsibility and expectations he created for himself.

I have heard so clearly the voice of God saying “I love you, and invite you to join me in the work of the kingdom”. Now I pray for the ability to undo years of thinking that involve a giant scorecard. I pray instead for the ability to run in the freedom that is the Love of a God who believes in me and invites me to a full life with Him.

Lord, Let Your kingdom come.

It's into this between my need for quiet presence of God, and the consistency with which I run from it that the words of Psalm 37 brought me to deep places of prayer this morning.

"Commit everything you do to the Lord,

Trust Him and He will help You.

He will make your innocence as clear as the dawn

And the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun.

 

Be still in the presence of the Lord,

And wait patiently for Him to act.

Don't worry about evil people who prosper

or fret about their wicked schemes.

 

The steps of the godly are directed by the Lord.

He delights in every detail of their lives.

Though they stumble, they will not fall,

For the Lord Holds them by the hand."

 

Psalm 37. 6-7; 23

"Be Still in the presence of the Lord".  I pray for the freedom and grace needed to enter into the quiet stillness of God today.  This stillness is a stillness consisting of surrender and rest in the aloneness that is mine before Christ, and a confident faith that allows me to approach His throne of Grace with confidence.

"Let him who cannot be alone beware of community."  

"Let him who is not in community beware of being alone."

Luther

 

"only a we are within the fellowship can we be alone, and only he that is alone can live in the fellowship."

Dietrich Bonhoeffer

In a day and age where community has become the object of much of our attention, may we not loose sight of the importance of being still in the aloneness of our relationship with the God who loves us in such life giving ways.