Life As I Live It...

Remain

chadb_ca — Tue, 15 Dec 2009 02:55:45 +0000

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John 15 is a passage of scripture that has been a constant encouragement and challenge in my life. "Remain In Me" is both a powerful command and an incredible invitation. I've often wrestled with what it looks like to remain and even more often with how to go about it. In a world filled with distractions, expectations, and a constant battle between flesh and spirit I often find it hard to keep focused on Jesus. The key lies not in our ability to remain, but in our ability to surrender and allow him to remain in us.

This song is one that I wrote in the summer of 2008, and it's lyrics still ring incredibly true for me. I pray that as you listen this song allows you to come to a place of honesty in the presence of a God who calls you to Himself. I am reminded as I post it that the call to remain is followed by a promise "Remain in Me, and I will remain in you." John 15:4

Published

chadb_ca — Mon, 14 Dec 2009 21:11:49 +0000

My post on 'Trendy Justice ' has garnished a fair bit of attention since I posted it. Recently it was published in the Island Insight section of the BC Christian News .

(I will say I wish they hadn't titled like they did… but that's the media for you – HA.)

Blazing A Trail Within

chadb_ca — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 17:43:17 +0000

Dan Wilt, a friend of mine from the East Coast, sent out some thoughts via email today, and they're really sitting with me. Here's what he wrote:

Blazing A Trail Within. Dan Wilt, M.Min.

In the worshiper's life, the longest, most arduous journey, is

the one we trek inside. The terrain of each heart is a rugged one,

full of possibilities and pitfalls with the rise and fall of every

circumstance and relationship.

It is only in self-offering, again and again, that we learn the art of

relinquishing these fragile lives that we lead. When we relinquish

control, we cut a swath through the roughest of wilderness and

follow God in the wild journey into Christ-likeness.

In between the Now and the Not Yet, worshiping with you,

Dan

Dan's words resonate with me today. They also encourage and spur me on to a place of worship. Often in our humanness we fail to remember we're made fully alive in Christ alone. My heart and head are full and troubled in many ways today, and am blessed to remember that God promises to draw near as we draw near to Him. (James 4)

May today be a day where as Dan puts it I am able to "offer myself, again and again, that I may learn the art of

relinquishing the fragile life that I lead. I pray to that you right now, in this moment, you're struck by the awesome and all sufficient presence of the God who loves you. That this encounter would inspire you as it has me to stop and offer yourself to Him in worship.

Dan is the director of

THE INSTITUTE Of Contemporary And Emerging Worship Studies (St. Stephen, New Brunswick, Canada) Check it out online.

Overwhelmed

chadb_ca — Wed, 22 Jul 2009 23:40:57 +0000

Today I received really heavy news. A long time friend died in a motorcycle accident this week at the age of 30. The news hit me really hard. My heart is broken for the family, and as a friend I'm overwhelmed by the loss. Death and grieving are hard realities, and experiences that are only intensified when they come 'before their time'.

A couple weeks ago I had an opportunity to visit my sisters grave. It was the first time I've been there since she passed away two years ago, and it was a precious moment. She, like Arthur, was only 30 when she died. I remember standing at the graveside feeling an unspeakably deep sense of loss. It was so obvious that what I needed in that moment was beyond me (as was the case many times when Jayda was sick, and never more than the days surrounding her death.)

While Jayda was sick I wrote a song called Overwhelmed. It came as a very honest prayer in response to the notion that "God will never give us anything we can't handle". I believed that all my life.. until Jayda got sick. Truth is, the three years surrounding her sickness were full of moments where I felt completely overwhelmed. I quickly began to realize that we're not promised a life free from anything we can't handle. The promise is that he will never leave us, or forsake us. Each time I sing this song I embrace this truth remembering how often I find myself in situations that require something beyond me. These moments of complete humanness are many, and they aren't going away. I have also learned that God will forever be faithful to meet me, guide me, and even carry me in each and every one of these moments. Overwhelmed is a heart cry. Today I lift it up especially on behalf of Arthur's friends and family. As well, may it become a prayer for many who find themselves overwhelmed whatever the situation.

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Trendy Justice

chadb_ca — Sun, 03 May 2009 19:27:32 +0000

Not sure if you've noticed, but social justice is the new black! What I mean is, it's become really trendy to get involved, to make a difference, to embrace justice. I love some of what's resulted from this collective social conscience. Organizations like Invisible Children and Bono's ONE campaign are examples of an ever growing and incredibly impressive list of groups deeply moved to 'do something' having been made aware of the great injustices facing our world today. The fact that people across racial, cultural, and socio-economic borders are being made aware of injustice globally, nationally, and in our own back yards is nothing shy of incredible. Youth groups strive to 'go green' at their schools, our fridges are covered in $30/month children, and every year hundreds of Canadians go without food for the 30 hr famine. In the past couple years pop culture has helped to fuel the fire as celebrities adopt children, build schools, and throwing huge concerts to raise both awareness and finances in the collective fight against poverty, AIDS, and the injustices of war around the world.

I love what is going on in this way, and am excited to be a part of this movement in whatever way I can. That said, I do have some questions and concerns:

Why? What is our motivation in 'doing good'? I fear that for many, the desire to get involved is rooted in a very selfish place. "We give because it makes us feel good." I have talked with countless people who can strongly articulate the idea that they give because it 'feels good'. The truth is that for many of us, christian and non-christian alike, 'if it feels good… do it' is at the core of our world view. At first glance this motivation seems harmless, if not logical. The reality is, it does feel amazing to see justice come to a situation, and to now you were a part of that process. There are huge issues though when this becomes our sole motivation.

First of all, our efforts will be very short lived and inadequate when it comes to accomplishing anything in the big picture. I am daily reminded of the fact that Justice is only a 'feel good' experience on the surface. Handing out sandwiches will only cut it for a short time. Eventually these exchanges will connect us with a person. A person with a face, a name, a story, and a deep need for much more than a sandwich. Suddenly the reality of the situation jumps up and slaps us in the face, and it no longer 'feels good' to give. In fact, it threatens to become incredible scary, messy, and costly. This is the 'Justice Ministry' that God has called us to, and it will never be 'Trendy'.

Earlier this year I found myself in the middle of a mind blowing situation. A woman named Marg approached me on behalf of a friend who needed help. Marg's friend was an elderly woman who had recently undergone a hip replacement. She had been taken to the hospital for surgery, and Marg needed help getting her house cleaned so they could move her back in. The task of cleaning this house was no small order, because Margs friend had lived the past number of years in severe depression. The effects of this deep depression had kept her from doing even the most basic of household duties. Marg described the state of her friends house, and challenged me over and over with the fact that I really had no idea how bad it was.

I put a call out to our local churches to recruit some help, and made no attempt to glorify the request (knowing that if things were half as bad as Marg was saying I'd only get myself in trouble if I was anything but upfront with the details.) 2-3 days went by without a response, and so I took it up with the Pastor at the church we're attending. He asked me to share the need on Sunday morning, and in turn I was able to gather a group of 6 to go and clean the house on the following Wednesday. When we arrived the state of the house was beyond what any of us had expected. Filled with four years of garbage, rotten take out, and human urine in milk jugs, the smell almost made me sick a number of times. We separated the empty pop bottles from the rest, and were able to use the $150 in returns to pay for one of the three dumpsters we used to have the garbage hauled away.

At one point I was standing knee deep in garbage with a shovel, when a client of mine who'd joined the clean up crew asked me: "so… this woman was just depressed!?" His eyes filled with tears, as this man who has fought with depression personally, connected with the magnitude of what this lady must have experienced for things to get this far. I couldn't help but think that He had somehow connected with Christ's heart for the situation in a way that I hadn't.

It was in that moment that I realized how far I have to go towards understanding God's heart for justice. It is a justice that goes far beyond trendy, or an action of self gratification. It is the very act of setting right the wrongs in this world, and it is far beyond our ability to accomplish. It is an answer to the call of Isaiah when he said:

"learn to do right! Seek justice, encourage the oppressed. Defend the cause of the fatherless, plead the case of the widow." Isaiah 1.17

In addition to the fact that Trendy Justice tends to be very fragile when the rubber hits the road, there is a much larger issue at it's core. Trendy Justice lacks hope. Ultimately a sandwich, 30/month, school fees for a year, clean drinking water, AIDS drugs…. it's just not enough. What we need is a saviour. We need someone who can bring complete justice, and not one of us can fully be that for another. The good news however is that "light has come into the world". There is hope, because in the darkness of injustice there is a light! True justice shines when our actions and efforts are flooded by, filled with, and pointed towards light in the midst of darkness.

¹ In the beginning the Word already existed. The Word was with God, and the Word was God. ² He existed in the beginning with God. ³ God created everything through him, and nothing as created except through him. ⁴ The Word gave life to everything that was created, and his life brought light to everyone. ⁵ The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness can never extinguish it. ⁶ God sent a man, John the Baptist,⁷ to tell about the light so that everyone might believe because of his testimony. ⁸ John himself was not the light; he was simply a witness to tell about the light. ⁹ The one who is the true light, who gives light to everyone, was coming into the world." John 1.1-9

As the Church, we must not get seduced by the 'feel good' experience of Trendy Justice. Instead, we need to surrender our very lives to the cause (an act that will never be 'mainstream'). God is a God of Justice, and we desperately need to catch His heart for the injustices that surround us. Let us pray that His Kingdom Come in the face of injustice on Earth as it is in Heaven. The Bible challenges us to "not become weary in doing good". A deeper look at this passage in Galatians 6 teaches us that "the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life." Justice that is self motivated and self manufactured will not cut it. Instead it must be the result of the Spirit in us, for truly:

God, who said, “Let there be light in the darkness,” has made this light shine in our hearts so we could know the glory of God that is seen in the face of Jesus Christ. We now have this light shining in our hearts, but we ourselves are like fragile clay jars containing this great treasure.This makes it clear that our great power is from God, not from ourselves. 2 Corinthians 4.6-7

The Soloist

chadb_ca — Mon, 30 Mar 2009 00:20:49 +0000

When I started working at the Salvation Army I knew I would be encountering a pretty steep learning curve. I've never been homeless, addicted to drugs or alcohol, and I've never suffered from mental illness. The past year has opened my eyes and my heart more and more of what it would be like to live life with any of the above. I have to admit that the most frustrating and eye opening struggle I've witnessed has been that of mental illness. A homeless friend of mine here in the Valley said it best one day when he passionately addressed a group of service providers: "If your mind ever leaves you you'd better pray to God you have family and friends who will love and surround you!" When he spoke those words my eyes filled up with tears.

My friends words very clearly reveal the harsh reality of the world we live in, and they ring in my head many days and in many meetings with those who live with mental illness. Mental illness is a confusing reality, and not just for the individuals that suffer from it's effects. The more I interact with the mentally ill the more I'm alarmed by the lack of services/help available, the barriers between them and the limited resources that are offered, and the immense lack of compassion/understanding that exists in our society. A young man with schizophrenia, a woman locked up in her house with severe depression, a single mom fighting to raise her children while battling the unpredictable effects of bi-polar disorder, an old man crippled by an anxiety disorder that stems from a unspeakable childhood trauma….

I recently read a book titled The Soloist by Steve Lopez . It's Steve's personal story of how his life was radically changed when he began to share life with Nathaniel, an individual suffering from Schizophrenia. It chronicles the intense ups and downs of Nathaniel's life, and the desperate efforts of Lopez and others to help Nathaniel find health again. The book really helped me wrestle with some of my own relationships and experiences. If there's one thing I've taken from the book it's that the greatest thing we can do in there encounters is to 'be there'. I'm reminded of what Henri Nouwen called the 'Ministry of Presence '. Thinking back on my friends words, the one thing I know we can and are called to do for the mentally ill is 'be there'. A little over a year ago (while working at Starbucks) I asked God what he wanted me to do, and as I write this I'm reminded of His answer – "Live life with people, and as you do, love them".

I'm still very unsure how to step into the lives of these people where friends and family have been lost, unable, unwilling, etc. However it happened, many of them are alone. I believe that I've made baby steps in this area, but pray for God's help with the bigger picture. These people are no different than you or I in a lot of ways (they need healing… they need a saviour) yet in so many ways we will never fully relate to the pain, frustration, and loss that they experience on a daily basis. I pray for compassion, and for eyes to see. I pray that God would teach us how to better care for those who so desperately need us. Mainly I pray that God would teach me to "live life with people, and as I do, to love them".

A Crack In A Damn

chadb_ca — Mon, 16 Mar 2009 00:13:59 +0000

Friday March 6th I played my first show in the Valley. I was really nervous about it, but knew it was something I had to do. In fact, I've known since we made the move to the Island that God was going to really move me beyond my comfort zone musically. To date so much of my music has been expressed inside the church. I remember as a young man knowing that God wanted me to use my gifts both inside corporate worship, and out. I also heard him clearly state that I was to surrender the dream back to him, and that He'd be faithful to carefully bring it about in His time.

The show on Friday was incredible. I had the opportunity to play with two incredible friends (Steve H and Curtis G) and the room was packed with many other friends, co-workers, and even a few strangers. I had a sense that this show was going to 'open doors'. The crazy part has been the fullness to which God has opened the door! Since Friday I've played two open mic nights, and have made some really cool connections with local musicians in the area. I keep likening the past week to having put a 'crack in a damn'. I can't wait to see what comes of it all. One thing's sure… I know that all I'm required to do is continue following God's lead.

I share this partly to let everyone know what's going on with me musically. The bigger reason though is to share the lesson that God is teaching me in this. When I was 19 years old God clearly told me to let go the dreams He'd given me in the area of music. Since then it's been one cool adventure after another, but I'd be lying to say I haven't wondered if the dream had been lost forever. This week God has clearly reminded me that He is not only the giver of gifts and dreams, but the sovereign orchestrator and keeper of them. I'm quite sure this won't be a 'once and for all' lesson learned, but I can say that I feel a deepened sense of surrender today. God is so good, and I can't wait to see where He takes Janna and I.

Invitation To Love

chadb_ca — Sat, 24 Jan 2009 20:18:48 +0000

The world we live in sure is moving at a brisk pace. In fact, I caught myself feeling as if I'd stepped out of bed onto moving ground multiple mornings this week. I often feel as if there's 'just so much to do', and was actually becoming quite defeated in the midst of it all. I wish I knew better how to catch myself before allowing life to get so carried away, but over and over I seem to fall prey to the same old traps. I feel the need/desire to create, impact, impress, pursue, change, improve, succeed…. There is hope however. An ever growing ability to hear that inner voice of the Holy Spirit calling me to rest.

I recently re-read The Divine Romance by Gene Edwards. It is an allegorical telling of God's history from creation to resurrection. It is told primarily from the perception of angles and God Himself as it all unfolds. It truly is an amazing book, and I was deeply moved in my spirit as I read it again. The thing that really struck me as I read it this time was just how much God loves us, and in fact has created us ultimately for one thing – Love. We were created and designed not to build, create, design, impress, and accomplish. Those things may be a healthy byproduct of our lives, but they will never satisfy. That is because we were created for one simple yet mind blowing purpose… a love relationship with God Himself. To love and to be loved… that's it!

This past week God really spoke into what was quickly becoming a very discouraged and melancholy heart. The reminder that His deepest desire is to love me, and for me to love Him truly brought freedom and purpose in a moment. The heaviness that had started to weigh me down was near instantly lifted again. Matthew 6:33 began to fill my heart and mind again as I meditated on how important it is to 'seek first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness'. In His faithful way, God spoke those words over me. A beautiful thing happened as He did, and I found myself hearing them not merely as a commandment, but as an invitation. They truly are an invitation. An invitation to freedom and life. An invitation to lay down the worries and expectations of this life in order to seek first a God who is able to perfectly care for them all. Christ's words are an invitation to look into the eyes of God and know who we really are.

Another commandment that is an invitation in much the same way is found in Matthew 22. Jesus is asked "Master, which is the great commandment in the law?". I think it's worth noting that this question is asked by a lawyer who was also a Pharisee. No doubt he, like so many of us, was living a life overcome by the desire to impress, grow, succeed, produce… It is out of that chaotic existence that this man asks a simple question that is met with the very invitation that God presented to me this week:

Master, which is the great commandment in the law?

   Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind.

   This is the first and great commandment.

   And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.

   On these two commandments hang all the law and the prophets.

Matthew 22.36-40

God loves us so deeply. In fact we were created for nothing less. I pray that this reality speaks to the deeps of you as it did me this week. I pray to that the truth of it continues to change, shape, and restore my life.

Our Saviour Is Born

chadb_ca — Thu, 25 Dec 2008 23:11:51 +0000

Merry Christmas! I pray that this entry finds you safe in the care of the God who's birth we celebrate. I can say without a doubt that Janna and I definitely are. The year that we've lived since last Christmas has been filled with opportunities to see Him at his best. There are obviously too many stories to even touch the surface here, but I did want to share one major blessing that has changed our lives forever. In the spring of this year I accepted a job with the Salvation Army, and that decision has brought about an indescribable blessing in our life together. With the 'job' has come the lives of many who struggle to find meaning, purpose, freedom… the list is endless. These lives have deeply touched ours, and know find no exagerration when I say we will never be the same.

I've learned so much from these people, and from my daily interaction with them. I've learned that very little seperates our lives, and sometimes am awe struck by how close our realities really are. God has shown me a piece of his heart as I've spent time with those who have little, but often give generously, love without pretense, and show genuine passion for justice in a world filled with injustice. I know count many my friend who were only months ago hidden to me. They teach me daily what it looks like to live honestly even when the honesty of their lives may discust even themselves. I've seen too the 'wages of sin' and have felt the sorrow of seperation from God like I've never seen it. Lonliness, regection, faiilure, shame, drunkeness… the tip of the iceberg where the 'desires of our sinful nature' are realised. (Galatians 5.16ff)

There is one thing I've head God say louder than any other this year. It is simply but profoundly this – "We need a Saviour". The reality of this need grips me even as I write this. I can help but think of those I just spent time with at a community Christmas dinner. Men lost in drunkness. Women overwhelmed with sorrow on a day that should be filled with praise. People who often know no hope. The reality of Jesus birth, the coming of a saviour! I am filled with worship and moved to prayer for those who don't know Him. Father, speak… show your face… touch hearts… that they would come to see You, and join in the truest song of Christmas- Christ, our Saviour is born.

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Silent Night by Joseph Mohr 1816 – Preformed By Chad & Janna Block

17 The scroll of Isaiah the prophet was handed to him. He unrolled the scroll and found the place where this was written:

18 “The Spirit of the Lord is upon me,
      for he has anointed me to bring Good News to the poor.
   He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released,
      that the blind will see,
   that the oppressed will be set free,
      19 and that the time of the Lord’s favor has come.”

20 He rolled up the scroll, handed it back to the attendant, and sat down. All eyes in the synagogue looked at him intently. 21 Then he began to speak to them. “The Scripture you’ve just heard has been fulfilled this very day!”

Luke 4:7-21 (Isaiah 61)

The ‘Ministry of Presence’

chadb_ca — Tue, 16 Dec 2008 00:06:10 +0000

Lately I've been finding myself deep inside a tension between caring and becoming overwhelmed. I have the deep privillage of being invited into peoples lives daily. I sit with multiple people everyday and listen to their stories, share laughs, hugs, tears, etc. I get to pray, encourage, give to, and receive from people countless times every week. It really is an incredible blessing to have been given the life God has given me. That said, I often become quite overwhelmed by life. The world is with out question in a bad way, and I'm consistently surrounded by people who have lost all hope.

It's in these moments of overwhelming and desperate need for peace, rest, guidence, wisdom, etc… that God has proved to me His faithfulness time and again. A couple weeks ago I was feeling particularly defeated, and God encouraged me during a chat with a buddy. He, like me, spends his days surrounded by marginalized people. He was able to speak such encouragment and life into me when I so badly needed just that. We talked about how often we wonder if what we do is enough, when God reminded him of something he'd read. The following was written by Henri Nouwen, and God spoke to me deeply through these words:

“More and more, the desire grows in me to simply walk around, greet people, enter into homes, sit on their doorsteps, play ball, throw water, and be known as someone who wants to live with them. It is a privilege to have the time to practice the simple ministry of presence. Still, it is not as simple as it seems. My own desire to be useful, to do something significant, or to be a part of some impressive project is so strong that soon my time is taken up by meetings, conferences, study groups and workshops that prevent me from walking the streets.

It is difficult not to have plans, not to organize people around an urgent cause, and not to feel that you are working directly for social progress. But I wonder more and more if the first thing shouldn’t be to know people by name, to eat and drink with them, to listen to their stories and tell your own, and to let them know with words, handshakes, and hugs that you do not simply like them but truly love them.”

[Henri Nouwen in Gracias! Published in 1983, pg. 147-148]

At the end of last week I started to feel very heavy again, because while I believe Henri's words completely, I very quickly loose sight of their simple truth. Is it really enough to just 'be' with the broken, lost, tired, lonely, afraid, abandoned, abused, rejected… ? This question isn't new to me, but neither is the answer. God very clearly spoke to me about a year and half ago. I had just asked the same question (while working at Starbucks) and His answer was – "Share life with others and love them as you do. Always remain true to who you are in Me." As I read Henri's words again today I hear the voice of God saying: "Yes, it's enough, because I am in you, and I AM enough."